Thursday, October 31, 2019

KIM WARNICK

photo by Jeff Colchamiro

KIM WARNICK

*I began recording mid-conversation. In the beginning we were discussing our shared love of Japan. I'm "Speaker 2" . -Deeds

Speaker 2:
There are few places in the world other than Japan where American bands get such royal treatment.

Kim:
Maybe in like South America. You see from all those videos, they (Ramones) were like the Beatles down there.

Speaker 2:
For sure. That level of enthusiasm is definitely like that in Japan too.

Kim:
Yeah, it's like nothing else. It just makes you feel ... It reminds you of why you do this. Because there's people out there that love it so much. Then they bought a test pressing of one of your records that even Kurt Bloch didn't have. He's like, "How do you have this?" Who knows because that's all they do. That's all they care about.

Speaker 2:
Oh yeah. The collecting phenomenon in Japan is like nothing else.

Kim:
I know there's documentary on that because I've watched it for sure.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. One thing that I felt was interesting and I brought it up to my friends that I know there is, the Japanese bands are excellent.

Kim:
They are.

Speaker 2:
And I feel like they're very humble and they look at the United States as the mecca of punk rock or something. But I'm like, you guys write awesome songs yourself and-

Kim:
And you live in Japan. I know that all sound stupid to say because of course they do. But I guess the grass will always be greener for anybody. And I get why the US is probably a pilgrimage for them to make for all the right reasons, to go to New York and LA and see these places that they've heard about all their life.

Speaker 2:
Of course.

Kim:
But for me it was like, fuck this country (the USA). I want to go there (Japan).

Speaker 2:
Exactly, yeah, yeah.

Kim:
I don't want to leave (Japan).

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Yeah. Culturally it's always been a place that I've been very fascinated by. I'm a teacher so I have a lot of students from Japan in the Bay Area.

Kim:
What do you teach?

Speaker 2:
I teach middle school, sixth grade, at a school that has sixth, seventh and eighth grades.

Kim:
Oh wow.

Speaker 2:
That's what I've been doing my whole ... I'm almost 40. I've been doing this about 12 years.

Kim:
That's so cool. That's really great. There was no middle school when I was going to ... So we went to junior high, which was seventh, eighth and ninth when I was in school.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.

Kim:
It's weird to me to think the way it works these days, but.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. They're always trying to make adjustments and upgrade it.

Kim:
Looking back I kind of feel like junior high was just a waste of time. You basically learn to read and write mostly in kindergarten through sixth and then junior high it's like, I was taking a typing class, a cooking class because that's what women did back then. It was just weird. And I'm like, well now I'm in high school. Couldn't I just be done with high school at age 16? I didn't like school at all.

Speaker 2:
Well, what I've realized in my position is the most important thing for me to do is just be an example of a cool adult who can listen and be encouraging and let them make their mistakes and make sure they know that it's not a big deal and that people still care about them. And that things are going to be all right.

Kim:
Yeah. And they can change it or take a different path around it. Yeah, I agree.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Because all the academics that we do, it's fine and I guess it's important on some level. But grades in middle school don't ruin your career later in life. So I don't put a lot of emphasis on the marks and the transcripts and all that stuff.

Kim:
Yeah. Where were you when I was going to school?

Speaker 2:
Well, I mean I fell into it kind of by chance but sixth grade was a big transition year for me growing up and it sucked and I didn't have a lot of adult role models back then that were positive. So it just felt like an area that I could contribute to in a good way.

Kim:
So have you lived in the Bay Area all your life? Did you grow up there?

Speaker 2:
Actually no. I've been here since 2006 and before that I lived on the east coast the whole time. I grew up in Virginia in this little small town. But I always listened to the music that was going on out here and when I arrived, it was like a different time and stuff. But I still felt really connected to all that Gilman Street and Bay Area Punk.

Kim:
We actually played Gilman Street.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.

Kim:
That's kind of a badge of honor really I think.

Speaker 2:
Oh for sure.

Kim:
I almost kind of remember that night too a long time ago.

Speaker 2:
That's cool.

Kim:
It was fun. I forget who we played with. Kurt might know. But it was fun.

Speaker 2:
That's awesome. Well, I was born in 1980 so a lot of the music I grew up with was kind of like post Fastbacks but definitely influenced by. And then when I discovered Fastbacks it's like, oh my God. It's a really interesting thing when you go to research music that you enjoy and then you find something that was happening before your own time. But it resonates so strongly with you, you know what I mean?

Kim:
Yeah.

Speaker 2:
Fastbacks were a band that felt just right. It's like, oh my God, like melodic, like kind of loose but still punky and straightforward.

Kim:
Yeah those, that's the main thing.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Yeah. And you start to pay attention to things like, oh here are my favorite songwriters. What do they like? And they all like the Fastbacks so I was like, I'd better check out the Fastbacks. And I'm really glad I did. I mean, I've since become pretty well versed in all the music that all of you've created so it's been a great thing. The Internet has helped a lot too.

Kim:
Oh of course it has. I mean, that's how I would say people these days mostly find out about bands they like. It's so easy. But I mean, so that's interesting you bring that up because living pre-Internet as to now, there's the obvious good and bad things. I don't think there's any bad, but I will say that making a way as far as rock and roll and what bands you're going to end up seeing or falling in love with kind of haphazard a lot of times.

Speaker 2:
Oh yeah.

Kim:
It got easier I think when all the punk rock singles would come out of the UK. So you keep up with it and you kind of knew, well if the Buzzcocks record is good, the Stranglers record is probably going to be good. Or you just kind of follow that. But I guess you had to find that in the first place and that is what is different.

Speaker 2:
Yeah, for sure. And everybody kind of had a different access point. Like I grew up skateboarding so Thrasher magazine and stuff like that would open me up to a lot of music. And then you just would pay attention to the details, like the liner notes and the t-shirts people were wearing and just all that stuff.

Kim:
Oh, all the time. The liner notes, I mean I remember as a kid when I was 12 or 13 buying LPs. And I didn't know anything about how people record music. I didn't know anything. My brother came on 12 years later, so I had to guide him which was awesome. He ended up knowing a lot about different kinds of music.

Speaker 2:
That's cool.

Kim:
Yeah. But I remember just devouring liner notes. And I certainly didn't know, so and so's the producer and this is engineer. I could say that but what do they do? Do you know what I mean? I learned about ... So there was no Internet. The reason I learned anything about any of this stuff was magazines. And I even got their sarcasm, their tongue in cheek stuff as a kid, which is some pretty next level. And also Circus and Rock Scene. That's how I found out about stuff.

Speaker 2:
Wow. Yeah. Did you read a lot of interviews and stuff too because that's something that I always have found really-

Kim:
Always. All the time. I was obsessed. I had to know everything, read them and as soon as those records came out by whoever it was, I bought it.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Well that's cool. I mean, my inspiration to do this songwriter's blog is just kind of paying homage to that era of magazines and reading about things that you're interested in and just extending additional lines of communication. Because to me, writing songs in the first place is a higher form of communication. And then you want people to know about it so you gotta bring it back down to the earthly level and have conversations about why you're doing it and what you're inspired by and all those things too. Which it's kind of like watching a movie with the DVD commentary or something, the behind the scenes. That stuff's always interested me.

Kim:
Yeah, me too.

Speaker 2:
Cool. Yeah, I mean as far as our conversation and stuff, I'm recording it now. My setup is, I have my district issued MacBook that I was at school just doing lesson plans when I called you and I'm recording our conversation in the garage band using the laptop microphone. So I'm going to make this down.

Kim:
Okay. It sounds really clear so I can hear you and you can hear me.

Speaker 2:
Awesome. Yeah. And I just figure let's just shoot the shit kind of and I have kind of like some things that I would like to ask you but in general I'm just stoked to have a conversation with you. And as another person who's very interested in songwriting and creating songs, I feel there's a certain community among us. If you look at the general population of people and creative people even, songwriting is kind of in its own little niche little world. So it's special.

Kim:
Yeah. Sometimes I think that ...  I haven't written a ton of songs. Those songs were all Kurt's. But I have written some of my own songs and I think sometimes if you are somebody who's maybe never written a song or doesn't write songs but you still love music so much, I feel like that's such, coming at it at a different place. Like when I hear a song that, for instance, From Your Girl by the Muffs.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.

Kim:
It's one of the most well written songs I can think of right now. Then like classics like 60's songs that are completely very well written. I think that when I hear that, I know that's like the gold standard. That's something I can aspire to and I'm not trying to be ... I'm just saying I don't think I could ever get to that. That's too good. It's just too amazing. But I mean, I think some people if you have written a song ever, you pay attention differently to music then to somebody who just loves music to death and for whatever reason, they haven't. Maybe just that's not their thing. But it's interesting. You hear things differently.

Speaker 2:
Oh I agree for sure. I think when you embark on the challenge of writing a song for the first time, if you're a person who's always loved music, it's kind of just like developing the tools and the skills to get it out of your head because it's probably all there.

Kim:
And it's fucking hard because if you're somebody that's always loved music, you obviously have songs and songwriters, bands that you look up to and that will make you fear it because you won't be able to write that kind of song. Or hopefully it's going to spur you to just try harder and know that songwriting, like anything, like writing, anything that you do repetitively is going to get better hopefully. Songwriting is weird because sometimes people maybe just don't write the best songs but it doesn't matter as long as you're trying to keep going in the forward direction. But I think it's frustrating. The times that I've written some songs, first of all I'll tell you something. When I have written any song, I have to run it through like a mental Fastbacks meter of like, am I ripping this off from that?

Kim:
Because it just seems so familiar but of course it wouldn't. But so far I don't think if ripped off any of our songs. I also have to run it through a Muff's meter too. Like is this lifted from something that I love that I'm not paying attention to?

Speaker 2:
Oh yeah, yeah. No I can fully relate to that. And I love Kim's songwriting as well. I think she's-

Kim:
She really gives.

Speaker 2:
Such a unique talent in so many ways. I mean, her performances, her aura, her personality was its own force to be reckoned with. But her skills as a composer, as a songwriter were kind of other worldly to me.

Kim:
I've been so enjoying all the tributes to her since she passed. It's just so sad but the one that is the most amazing, did you see the one Elvis Costello wrote?

Speaker 2:
Oh yeah. Yep. Incredible.

Kim:
Yeah. Jesus Christ, that's the highest praise you can get.

Speaker 2:
Yeah, so meaningful.

Kim:
And it's funny. I was talking the somebody about this. I know it's not true but for some reason I kind of felt like the Muff's were our little secret. Like we knew about this great band. I guess what I'm trying to say is like, just it's mind blowing to see, and I love seeing this, how huge their influence was.

Speaker 2:
Oh yeah.

Kim:
And it makes sense but I mean, again maybe because we knew them, we played some shows with them since the early days as it were, and maybe there's that part that you want to keep that band to yourself.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.

Kim:
It's that kind of thing.

Speaker 2:
Yeah, I can relate to that. I always felt that they were kind of destined to remain underrated in a sense because even fans of their songs, I felt maybe they weren't even aware of how good it really was or maybe couldn't articulate how good it really was. And they were a member of kind of like various communities in the rock world. They could be considered a pop punk band, they could be considered a rock and roll band and they-

Kim:
Or a garage rock band. There's a lot of boxes to check with those guys, for sure.

Speaker 2:
Yeah, for sure. You were saying as a songwriter, when you're inspired by someone great like Kim, there is like a level of frustration about well how can I ever reach that, especially because her process and the way that she put chords together and her melodies were so deceptive in the way that they were super catchy and seemed very simple and straightforward but there were all these nuances. And she did those jazz chords and things that were really cool.

Kim:
I'll tell you something. That's what Kurt Bloch does. I tell you, yes I've been in that basement forever. We just played this show, well we didn't just, we did it last year, our 30th anniversary.

Speaker 2:
Oh cool.

Kim:
So that was August 8th or something, 2018, I forget. Anyway. I just looked back on her name and we hadn't played since 2011 I think. Anyway, or 2013 I think. Anyway, I had to learn all those songs again and the point is, first of all I should have a leg up because I've been playing these songs most of my life. But when you haven't been practicing that stuff, it's like you're taking a crash course on going to the moon. It's so intense.

Kim:
And then how come these songs sound ... But I mean, I think any kind of bands like this that you could say Green Day too. Those songs, nobody would think. If you sit down and learn a Green Day song, there's a lot of chords that you wouldn't think are happening. More than you're thinking.

Speaker 2:
That's true. That's very true. Well Kurt's songwriting for me is kind of a mind bending experience to try to analyze the songs. I was listening to Fastback songs last night while I was washing dishes and stuff and if you follow the melody... it takes you to all these different places. It's like, take for example the Ramones style of songwriting, the way Dee Dee Ramone wrote songs. It was very impactful and very melodic but followed a fairly simple and similar format every time.

Kim:
Agree.

Speaker 2:
And it was kind of predictable in a way. But with Kurt's songwriting, you still had that impact of the melody. It was every bit as catchy, every bit as memorable, but the passages were much longer and the melodies, the way they would kind of cascade before they would resolve and come back around, it was almost like holy shit, I just go through the first verse but it felt like I was on this epic journey of the melody.

Kim:
But you know where that comes from? You know that that is because he loves prog rock. So I have a feeling that that's wide known. I mean, King Crimson, Robert Fripp is a big deal, and bands like that. He is really into that. So Budgie, stuff like that. So that's what he grew up with. I like some of that stuff but I think we all made on like '70s AM radio. That's kind of what we were listening to. And of course within that, Elton John. I think sometimes when I listen to our records, I realize that I know we're a weird kind of band in a way but I think it's just because there's just all those different influences. We weren't just influenced by the Adolescents Agent Orange. So we're not going to assimilate that. And we came from Earth, Wind & Fire displayed really, and Blue Oyster Cult. So if you put that all into a blender, you're going to get us.

Speaker 2:
I really appreciate that because when I was discovering pop punk and punk rock and everything, it was early '90s and by that time, a lot of bands that were forming seemed to have a narrower focus as far as their influence. It's like, oh I want to sound exactly like Bad Religion or Screeching Weasel or something like that. And they didn't draw from as many influences, at least in the little scene that I was paying attention to. And I always really, when I listen to the Muffs, when I listen to the Fastbacks and other bands that have a broader spectrum of influences, I always could feel that special quality. And it was still the kind of music that I wanted to hear with loud guitars and shorter, faster punkier songs. But there was that real mark of individuality because you were just doing what you wanted to do. It wasn't necessarily like, using a certain playbook for songwriting or a certain aesthetic. And I always thought that was really cool.

Kim:
Yeah. I think we aimed high all the time and sometimes, I don't think we missed the mark ever, but it was some songs were pretty ambitious. Kurt is a gifted guitar player-

Speaker 2:
Yeah for sure.

Kim:
... and Mike Musburger is an incredible drummer. And I think Lulu is a great guitar player, a great, great bass player. But I feel like my limitations, I see them all the time when I'm playing with that caliber of a person. I'm just trying to keep it together.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Well I mean, that's another cool thing about the Fastbacks is it's just a unique blend of personalities and skills and everything.

Kim:
It's high school. We certainly are not like the Beach Boys but I don't even know if they all went to high school together. It doesn't really matter but that's how we've known each other for so long that it's like your siblings.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. There was always a very down to earth vibe about the Fastbacks too. Since we've been talking about Kim and the Muffs, I got a similar feeling from them as well where it's like, the way you presented yourselves was a very friendly and approachable kind of vibe. It was like, hey you could hang out with us. We're not assholes.

Kim:
We're not going to hurt you.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. And I appreciate that because there have been times throughout my dealings with the punk scene where there have been high school type politics and kind of rules about how you're supposed to look and sound. And those are all very lame aspects of human nature when it comes to art, like trying to stick within a limited aesthetic or approach.

Kim:
It's interesting you say that because I think that we certainly were very different when we started out. We were just kind of like ... I was the only one playing the instrument that I had played in a previous band. So Lulu was just learning how to play guitar standing up. I didn't even sing in this band for a while.

Speaker 2:
Wow.

Kim:
Yeah. So Kurt wasn't playing guitar, he was playing drums, which was not his instrument. It was just supposed to be a funny band that we could play covers and Beatles songs. That's what we started as. And then one day, he was in a band called the Cheaters before us, so he had written great songs and came to practice and he wrote a song. I still remember the name, called Real People. So we had our first real song. But I guess what am I trying to say? That we were just learning, like a lot of bands were at the time. It wasn't a lot of bands.

Kim:
There wasn't really a scene, much. But there were bands that were doing stuff. And as we kind of evolved and Kurt switched to guitar, we got lots of drummers. So in the early '80s, it was really kind of it seemed like there were bands doing stuff but it was hardcore, more like hard rock. And we weren't either of those. So we probably got roped into hardcore more because we were fast and loud and probably kind of hectic singing. But it was a weird time in Seattle.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Yeah.

Kim:
There was no pop punk but I would imagine we kind of were that even before that term or that genre got born out.

Speaker 2:
Yeah, I would say you definitely predate that whole conception of what the pop punk aesthetic is or what it became.

Kim:
That term is just so weird. It's just songs with melody, but I don't know. Everything has to have a genre and that's great. AM radio was so crazy cool back then because they could play Iron Man next to Rocket Man and it was fine. Nobody blinked an eye. Like I like this song. I like that song more, that one has guitar but ...

Speaker 2:
I think for-

Kim:
You didn't question it at that because what else is there going to be? And then there was FM radio. You're like, oh wow. So that's where all those yes records are being played. I get it.

Speaker 2:
For people in my sort of little world of pop punk and they call it Ramonescore, like bands that are directly paying homage to Ramones.

Kim:
I've never heard that before. Thank you because I've never heard that before.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Well I'm interested on your perspective because for me, my whole interpretation of it is the Ramones specifically, and bands that were directly inspired by them especially the bands that would later go on to do records with Lookout! and this other smaller label called Mutant Pop, they were learning to write songs based on Dee Dee Ramone's songwriting, based on a very specific formula. And it empowered people because maybe they didn't have the experience, maybe they didn't have the confidence to really jump right into writing songs and playing music. But if they had the sense that hey, maybe I could do this if I just kind of color within the lines and see what happens. I feel like a lot of the bands started that way and some branched out more than others.

Speaker 2:
I started that way. I started playing music when I was 25 but I'd been obsessed with music since I was a kid. I think it was important for me to have some pathway to feel successful. But once you have that, it can take on its own life.

Kim:
Well I think what happens is you can be inspired by anything, a painting or some dish you had at a restaurant. Anything could inspire you, especially with music and the Ramones for instance. Yeah. Talk about being inspired, I think that band changed all of our lives. I know I've seen them, we saw their first show in Seattle at a hotel here. They didn't know. I think I thought they were booking at Team Dance or something because that's just the way they could get them in there. And I don't think they have had a rock band there since because it was the loudest fucking thing I've ever heard. It was a ballroom. It was not very big. Maybe it was like maybe 250 there, maybe.

Kim:
But Leave Home had just come out and Johnny Ramone had his full bunch of stacks in a very small place. But I think what happened, so if that's something you see that just blows your mind, you might start writing kind of shorter songs. But that's what you're going to start going to. But at the end of the day, what you have been loving all this time will start coming out. So I guess maybe the Ramones could be like a blueprint of what you want to do but if you're an architect, any blueprint probably is going to get changed lots of times. So you could eventually be like, this song is great. I'm not trying to make it longer but this solo, I think this solo would be cool here. That's I think what happens when Kurt wrote those songs. Those songs, maybe I'm wrong, I don't know. He might've set out to write a super long song but sometimes that's just what was needed, that amount of time needed to take it there.

Speaker 2:
I like that analogy of the blueprint and it makes a lot of sense to me. I think what I've tried to promote in my communication with other musicians and people who love music is that you should color outside the lines once you feel at least somewhat comfortable with the blueprint and just do what you feel.

Kim:
Yeah. Take the static line away. You feel like you're jumping out of an airplane. Or once you have the confidence to really feel inspired and inspired enough to go for it, I guess that's what real art is. Just keep pushing your own boundaries and see where it takes you. Who knows. Maybe you'll alienate all your fans. I'm trying to think of an example but there's some out there.

Speaker 2:
Oh sure.

Kim:
Or you'll just be happier. You'll just be doing what you want to do and hopefully people that love your music in the first place will stick around, or they'll hate your new shit and only buy the first two records. I don't know.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Well you're someone who, besides being in an awesome band and just being a cool person, the fact that you've continued passionately playing and recording and on come level continuing to participate and create this art has been inspiring to me. Because I think there's maybe in some people's heads a perception of like, okay there's a time in your life when you're going to be playing music and writing songs and stuff. And then you're going to move on to some other adult goal that's not related and maybe it's incompatible.

Speaker 2:
I've struggled with that because I'm father of a three year old and I have a pretty normal job and everything. So there's not a ton of free time but it's something that's always inside of me that I need to get out. I think it's important that other people who have that artistic nature feel that they can do it and feel that they should do it.

Kim:
Yeah. I haven't really been doing anything musically lately. I was taking to somebody the other day about this. I don't know why. I'm just in a, feel like kind of a musical, not dead end because that makes it sound way more dramatic than it is. Just kind of not ... I haven't even picked up my guitar for a while. So I don't know. It's kind of like just I didn't just move back to Seattle but I've been here a year come July 2018. So I don't know. I feel like I'm just getting my foot in. I also was sidelined for a while with a broken arm and I got a shoulder replacement. So I'm kind of just, yeah. And this surgery recovery can take up to six months to a year. So I'm not even there yet. So I'm just kind of trying to push myself. So I don't know. But that might have something to do with it.

Speaker 2:
Well I wondered too if having already accomplished so much and having achieved a lot musically and experienced a lot through being in the Fastbacks and forming your own projects and things, maybe there's a sense of you don't have to be on a particular schedule. You can just do it whenever you really feel the need to do it.

Kim:
Yeah. I agree. So I will write another song but maybe nobody will hear it. That's okay. For some reason, I'm not saying writing songs is easy because it isn't. But I feel like if you lock me into a room for three hours, I would come up with something. And maybe I should do that more because I feel like showing that creativity part off of me is not the best thing. But that's where I'm at right now. So who knows. It's fun talking about this stuff so I'm glad. Thank you for even considering me for this because songwriting is so interesting to me. And I like so many weird, different kinds of things and I have since I was a little kid. I wouldn't go outside and play because I didn't want to not have my records and my record player. I'm talking when I was like seven, six or seven.

Speaker 2:
Wow.

Kim:
So I've always been like that. My dad bought us a jukebox when I was 10. So at that point, it was all over. I stared going to giant rock shows when I was 12 and never did I think in a million years that I'd be playing music at all or playing on a stage like that, which we got to because we got to go tour with Pearl Jam. So I got the remember watching Elton John in 1972 thinking I'll never do that, but I got to.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. And that tour went all the way to the Middle East or something right?

Kim:
Istanbul, yeah.

Speaker 2:
Istanbul. Yeah.

Kim:
We had a night off so we got there, I think we flied there. So we were still on the regular run of the tour but we flew to that particular location and we got there the day before. Anyway, the record Pearl Jam, was Sony, had buses to take us all into the old town. And so we could go in there and we went and had amazing food. And then we were walking around. We went into this bar and it was so surreal. So we go into some bar. I'm trying to think what the name of the ... The band was called Cockroach because I think it's crazy that I remember that.

Kim:
I could be wrong but I think maybe Stone Gossard was with us, which the people in the band would've freaked out because they were doing Pearl Jam and Green Day covers. And we talked to them because I think we wanted to try to go up and play a song. But the reason we couldn't is because the bass player, he was a lefty bass player.

Speaker 2:
Oh yeah, yeah.

Kim:
And he's like, you can figure that out right? Like no. It's hard anyway let alone transferring it over that way. So anyway, that was really, really cool. They also had a last supper mural up on the wall at this place that had Bono, I think it was Jesus, Jimi Hendrix and I think Eddie was in there somewhere too. It was a crazy night.

Speaker 2:
Oh wow.

Kim:
It's a faraway place but it was amazing.

Speaker 2:
Wow. That sounds awesome.

Kim:
And we also played the World Trade Center in Istanbul, which was just like a one level building, huge building. And they were having a home show in half of the building. In the other half was the rock show, us and Pearl Jam. But the dressing rooms were all the way on the other side in the home show. So we had to walk out with our guitars on through kitchen displays and oven displays to get to the rock show. It was amazing.

Speaker 2:
Wow man.

Kim:
Yeah, what a trip. It was like being on acid or something.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. That's really cool. What is it like for you? I mean, you're talking to me. I'm going to be 40 but I'm from the generation that came later and discovered the Fastbacks later. Do you often get a chance to interact with people who were maybe removed from that era but are still really inspired by it?

Kim:
I guess so. I mean, I know that when we played, we played two shows. We played a show at a club to get our feet wet and see if we could even do it. And then we played at the Sub Pop the next day. But that was of course, it was an over 21 show. Not the Sub Pop one but the Sub Pop one, yeah people came up to me and were really pysched about the Fastbacks. And even more amazing, so before we played, I was just wondering around. It was in Alki Beach which I don't know if you're familiar with west Seattle. But it's right there. It's amazing.

Speaker 2:
Okay.

Kim:
I think they have four different stages all up and down the beach. It was an incredible event.

Speaker 2:
Wow.

Kim:
So before we played I was just wondering around with a friend and there was this school of rock stage. And we're talking to somebody and all of a sudden I hear our song, In the Summer, being played. I'm like, what? So I ran across this field and ran right to the front of the stage and here's these four kids playing our song. And it almost made me cry. It was just so cool. So what you're seeing, that was a classic thing. And then afterwards I got to take pictures with them which is really cute. So it was cool that the kids are hearing this stuff. I think sometimes a lot of what has to do is their parents probably have our records.

Speaker 2:
Sure.

Kim:
So if our one particular record looks good to that kid, some kind of eye candy, they might actually put it on. Like this looks weird, what's this like? Then they'll be like, this is gross I don't like it, or this is so cool, who are these girls that are singing? That's great.

Speaker 2:
For sure. Well, I'm in a position where I can show kids cool music and sometimes the students I have, have parents who have really cool tastes. I have a student this school year who just wore a Bad Brains t-shirt to class.

Kim:
Oh wow.

Speaker 2:
And I was like, wow you're wearing a Bad Brain's shirt. And she was like, "Yeah it's my mom's and I like this too." And I was just like, that's so cool. And I'm always really interested in how the youth of today are relating to the things that were so important to me growing up musically.

Kim:
Me too. I think sometimes I feel like, I don't know, I'm trying to think of a situation where a place I'm at where the music that's being played is so fucking boring and there's no guitar. And it probably depends on the places. I'm trying to think where I've been where it's like, you're not going to hear the Muffs.

Speaker 2:
Right, right.

Kim:
But I guess I just feel like unless kids are really searching for it, which I think they will find it for sure if they like that kind of music. But there's a lot of boring shit out there right now. It's just stuff that's not my thing. But I don't know.

Speaker 2:
I don't know if you've ever come across this, but on-

Kim:
I was going to say something. Because I was going to say it's like you are a teacher so Robert Pollard was a teacher as well.

Speaker 2:
Oh cool.

Kim:
I think he taught seventh grade. Or no, maybe fifth grade or something. He was a school teacher and Guided by Voices would go on tour in the summer. So he'd keep his real gig. But can you imagine first of all having him as your teacher is incredible. But he also one day as an art project, he had all his students design a single for Guided by Voices.

Speaker 2:
Wow.

Kim:
And he even picked the winner and that happened.

Speaker 2:
Oh my gosh.

Kim:
So there you go.

Speaker 2:
That's something else.

Kim:
I just set the bar a little higher for you, my friend.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Well that's a thing to talk about because Grim Deeds is something that is very much me. But it's also something that I've kept separate from my school life and I still share music with the kids but I don't share that. I share just like, well I have an acoustic guitar in my classroom and we'll pick it up and play songs. And I'll write little tunes for them and stuff here and there, which they really like. They enjoy it but I've always been self conscious about sharing gnarly lyrics with them or things that I felt would feel like would make them just ...

Kim:
Well these days especially. You're so under a microscope. Especially that kind of job with children, I can imagine some kid telling the mom like, what I don't even know what but we can all imagine some crazy ones.

Speaker 2:
Oh yeah.

Kim:
Yeah. But that's something, sadly you've got to be careful with that. But you do for sure.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Well there's ways of getting around it.

Kim:
Oh there are ways.

Speaker 2:
But you have to be careful. I think also in life as I'm sure you can relate, intentions have a lot to do with whether your outcome is positive or negative. And I think if you just are sincere in sharing music with kids, you're not going to get in trouble for that, even if you might steer them towards something that would be controversial or something like that.

Kim:
I would hope so but parents can be really weird, so.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.

Kim:
It's just, I'm glad you're doing that because that's good. Because that's how kids find out about good stuff.

Speaker 2:
Yeah for sure. I was going to mention this thing, this phenomenon that I've been interested in lately on YouTube. There's like a whole genre of videos and YouTubers who do what they call reaction videos. Where they react-

Kim:
Oh yeah, right.

Speaker 2:
... to listening to a song or seeing-

Kim:
Like Guns N' Roses for kids?

Speaker 2:
Yeah. So there's-

Kim:
Like they listen to Black Sabbath. They're like, that guy sounds crazy or something like that.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.

Kim:
I watch those.

Speaker 2:
There's all different styles and genres and things that people are reacting to. But what interests me is if you look at the different age group levels, some of them now are teenagers who are like young adults, like 18 year olds, 19 year olds and stuff, who are a bit more analytical, a bit more curious and want to educate themselves about the music.

Kim:
Oh I've only seen the little kid ones.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. That's what my first exposure was. But last night I was watching one where this 18 year old guy was listening to classic hip hop from the '90s, which is very different than the hip hop music of today.

Kim:
Oh yeah.

Speaker 2:
And his comments were very sincere and very thoughtful. But it also kind of confirms my bias towards that the golden era of hip hop because I felt like the lyrics were much deeper and the themes were more based in reality and life struggles and stuff. Whereas a lot of the hip hop music today seems to just kind of be like glorification of like a certain lifestyle and bragging shit.

Kim:
I don't like hip hop at all. So I'm just going to go and say that. It's so unrelatable to me, as a 60 year old white woman. Like no. I don't care. And here's another thing. I was thinking about this the other day. Where was I where I was listening to some shitty music? And I hate that ... I mean, Paul's Boutique is a great record. I love that record.

Speaker 2:
Yeah it's a really good one.

Kim:
Of course, I love all the samples on that record. It's just genius, completely.

Speaker 2:
For sure.

Kim:
But now let's think of this whatever, God knows, I don't even know who it would be. But they're just dropping in samples that like, fuck that. It was like say they're dropping in samples of like, Ooh Child by the Five Stairsteps. Like, I just want to go listen to that song. Don't put it with this filthy beast and this bullshit. I don't know. I just don't like it, so I don't-

Speaker 2:
Yeah. I mean, it's kind of a cheap-

Kim:
I guess some people might be hearing it and then somebody's going to listen to Ooh Child. Figure that out and love that song and go back and try it. I don't know. To me it just seems so boring. It's so slow and boring. I need four people, maybe five. I need guitars. I need to see them playing in a band. I don't want somebody on their fucking laptop.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Well that's kind of the double edged sword of being able to do it yourself nowadays. Because I feel like the internet age has allowed for a lowering of standards but it's also enabled people to do a lot more on their own. So it's kind of good and bad in a way.

Kim:
I think in general, I think it's good. I think it's just demystifying everything about everything. But when I was a kid, I had no ... I listened to Petula Clark Downtown and I think I just couldn't understand how did this happen. I was so curious about A, who is she? I sure like her voice but who are these other people on the record, little 45? What do these do? They wrote this song? Like how does it even happen? How did she do this? And then how come I can't do that? That was the voted question that was coming along eventually, looking through my jukebox while like I wish I could do this but there's no way I could do this. How could I do this? I don't play instruments.

Speaker 2:
Well that general sentiment seems to be a barrier for a lot of people, including people who love music who might have the capacity to create something cool, but there's like a barrier.

Kim:
For me, being a girl back then and I eventually graduated to Foghat, Deeper, more and all that. But I took piano lessons when I was a kid but I quit because I hated it. Of course now I'm sad I quit, but anyway. So I would listen to ACDC and think, goddamn, or Queen. I took guitar lessons for a little bit but acoustic guitar and I'm like, I'll never be able to play like Richie Blackmore. That's not going to happen. So I guess I cant do it. But you know what happened? The Ramone's happened. [crosstalk 00:48:47] that I might be able to do. They actually saved my life as far as that goes.

Speaker 2:
Well check this out. Kind of along those lines and to bring it back to the YouTube generation, there are a lot of videos that are shared now of people doing covers and expertly executing all the best riffs and solos and things.

Kim:
Oh yeah, I've watched some of them. I just watched a Muff's one. This Italian guy did Sad Tomorrow and it was beautiful. And hearing a guy do that, and he's a really good singer but it's just acoustic. It was just a loving tribute.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. So there's that and then there's sometimes you'll see these proteges.

Kim:
Oh yeah like a three year old kid shredding or some shit, yeah.

Speaker 2:
Exactly. I really admire that of course and it's inspiring in its own way. The thing that I would like to see more of is original songs with that same spirit in mind. Like check out my original song that I wrote. You know what I mean? And inspire, because the songwriting skill is in a whole other category.

Kim:
Of course.

Speaker 2:
I think people tend to take for granted the songwriting. Like oh yeah it's a good song or whatever but check out this solo and look how fast he's picking.

Kim:
That's a really good point. So I wonder if that, maybe because it's become so easy to see and watch, that maybe kids today, back burning just the thought of how the thought itself. Maybe the thought itself is not, like you said, maybe that's not the main thing. Like maybe because I can play this solo, I can play Eruption just like Eddie Van Halen or whatever.

Speaker 2:
Well and the American Idol generation. American Idol wasn't based on songwriting. It was based on do you have a nice tone of voice, do you have the technical chops to pull off this song?

Kim:
Well nobody's ever watched an American Idol version of songwriting. I wish they would. I would.

Speaker 2:
Oh yeah.

Kim:
I mean, I think people just, they're lazy. All these great songs have been written. Now how am I going to make it better? I'm going to do a hip hop version of this or drop in my sample or whatever. Write your own song. Now I say that because I don't write many songs, but I do understand that to be a songwriter, it's a next level. And I don't know. That's why Kurt wrote all those songs.

Speaker 2:
Right, right. Well eventually I wanted to ask you about Evan Dando and-

Kim:
Oh yeah, I love him.

Speaker 2:
He's someone who I've admired for a very long time.

Kim:
His songwriting skills are there.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.



Speaker 2:
I was aware of the early Lemonheads stuff with the Ben Deily but there's a certain aesthetic that he created on like, It's a Shame about Ray and that era of kind of jangly but still poppy and punky songs that he did so effortlessly.

Kim:
I feel like it's really good songwriting and I think it's just a very comforting sound. And that low voice, it's like honey.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. I mean, for Cali Giraffes, how did you initiate a collaboration with him? Have you known each other for a while and it had just sort of?

Kim:
Oh. Well he was in town. Apparently I had met him before but I didn't remember. So that was funny to find out.

Speaker 2:
I imagine he's a Fastbacks fan too.

Kim:
Yeah. He liked the Fastbacks and I liked the Lemonheads but I wasn't even that familiar with them at the time. Anyway, he played a show in Seattle and my band mate Mikey went to see him and then brought him back to the bar I was working at in Seattle. So we kind of talked for a minute. They go off to his hotel and then after I closed the bar I went to the hotel too.

Speaker 2:
Nice.

Kim:
And we just sat around playing songs and he's like a human jukebox. Like play, Holidays in the Sun or play whatever song, he can play any song.

Speaker 2:
Wow.

Kim:
He's gifted. And then it's like, you rock all these covers. Play Confetti. I want to hear your songs. And he was so happy to do that.

Speaker 2:
It's a great song.

Kim:
We should start a band and you get drunk enough to say stupid shit like that. So yeah let's jam tomorrow. Like really? With you? So it did happen and we looked up a practice space and went and played. He was on drums by the way. So he played drums on, is it Lick?

Speaker 2:
Maybe Lick or Creator, one of those maybe.

Kim:
Yeah. Anyway, he was playing drums and he's really good. He sounds like Paul Cook, kind of like a Sex Pistols vibe. But he wrote a song, solo bass riff added. We ended up recording it the next day. Anyway, so that's how we knew each other. And so he stayed a couple extra days and I will say this. It was a lost weekend. If you hang out with Evan Dando, really quick you're going to probably not remember much.

Speaker 2:
Wow.

Kim:
But he's a sweetheart and I love him to death. Then he went back to New York and we formed the band that we were in.

Speaker 2:
Wow.

Kim:
He gifted us our name.

Speaker 2:
That's cool. The Cali Giraffes. He did a collaboration-

Kim:
One CD.

Speaker 2:
Okay.

Kim:
And in Spain was 350 and that was that. We played a few shows but so anyway.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. Well I think it's really cool. I think it's important to do those collaborations and things when you have that opportunity and it's something I've tried to train myself to look for those opportunities. Because when you're inspired by someone else or if you connect on that level and there's an option to do something together, why the hell not?

Kim:
Yeah. I mean, generally it's people's schedules, especially the older you get everybody's got their shit going on. And so if it can work, it seems like generally that kind of collaboration feels best when it's organic.

Speaker 2:
Oh sure.

Kim:
Better than okay so are you going to be out here on the 23rd? So where are you staying? And you just get all the questions and then finally some kind of the actual outcome. I think spontaneity is key. But you also have to go somewhere to write with somebody so it doesn't always turn out that way.

Speaker 2:
Well and the internet age, the way I've achieved that kind of spontaneity is if I want to collaborate with someone, it's just like here's the song idea or here's what I've written so far. Email me what you've got. Email me your vocal that you've recorded in garage band. Email me your whatever and we'll put it together very easily. And I've been able to work with people in different parts of the US and abroad that way. And it's really easy to do and kind of phenomenal that you can just, hey friend in Sweden, will you record the guitars and drums on this next one? Like yeah sure and email it back to me-

Kim:
That is amazing.

Speaker 2:
... and I'll sing over it and there you go. And how easy is it to fool a lot of people now with fake amp modeling and drums. A lot of my songs are fake drums, but you can play around with it and tweak it enough to where it sounds acceptably human.

Kim:
Right. Well these days for sure.

Speaker 2:
Well Kim, I probably shouldn't keep you for too much longer. What I want to tell you though is this has meant a lot to me and I really appreciate you giving me the opportunity to touch base. And hopefully we'll stay in touch because this has been a great conversation.

Kim:
Yeah. Thank you for even having me, for calling. I appreciate it.

Speaker 2:
I do plan to reach out to Kurt as well and pick his brain about songwriting and hopefully that will work out. But Ian's a great guy. I'm a fan of Sicko and I love the-

Kim:
So are we, of course.

Speaker 2:
So it's cool how through music you can build community like this and it's just always-

Kim:
And it's still happening. That's the thing is like, this is how it was literally pre internet but in different ways. But it's still going, just in a different format. That's cool.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. And like us having this conversation sometimes, unexpected friendships and things can develop. You just never know in life and I've always really valued that.

Kim:
You do. I'm still in touch with people that I went to grade school with, so.

Speaker 2:
Yeah it's a trip.

Kim:
I hope that never changes.

Speaker 2:
Well I'm going to take the best of our conversation, transcribe it, and create a blog post out of it. And then I will include a photo of you. If you have anything that you would like to use let me know. Otherwise I can probably just find something. And then I'll throw it up on the blog. It will be interview number 52.

Kim:
Oh, number 52, my lucky number.

Speaker 2:
Yeah. I did interview Kim by the way. I'll send you a link to that if you want.

Kim:
Please do.

Speaker 2:
It was a cool conversation. Yeah.

Kim:
How long ago was that?

Speaker 2:
It was about a year ago, maybe a little longer than a year ago. And it was just through email. But still I got some really cool thoughtful answers from her.

Kim:
She was probably pretty bad at that point.

Speaker 2:
Yeah, and I had no idea.

Kim:
Yeah. I actually knew. Ronnie had told me. So I knew that they wanted her on the demo and it's the most heartbreaking story I've heard in a long time.

Speaker 2:
When I've been reading about it, the thing that strikes me the most is how she maintained sense of humor and maintained herself.

Kim:
Oh everything, yeah. She never changed. She oversaw that whole last record. It's incredible. And then to like, "You're my hands now. You play the guitar on these songs." I mean, it's just a pretty incredible story.

Speaker 2:
It's heavy. It's heavy for sure. I mean, she was always kind of just unreal, the fact that she was who she was.

Kim:
To me, she was like a mix of Veronica and Betty from the Archie's. She was a cartoon person in a way that larger than life. I always felt like that.

Speaker 2:
Yeah, for sure. Oh, one thing I have to tell you before we end our conversation is I'm friends with Dr. Frank from the Mr. T Experience.

Kim:
Oh yeah I know him.

Speaker 2:
He's a big Fastbacks fan.

Kim:
We actually covered Book of Revelation.

Speaker 2:
Yeah.

Kim:
And you know what, Dr. Frank, you write another song, you just wrote a song like Kurt. It's like the hardest song in the world. That song is not easy. If you were to learn that song, that's like oh that reminds me of one of our songs. So it's a great song though. That's the thing. They wrote great songs.

Speaker 2:
For sure. For sure. And I'm definitely going to tell him that I got to call you and talk to you because I think he'll be stoked on that.

Kim:
I love him. I'll tell you a good Dr. Frank story. He told me this. I think it might have been on tour in Europe with Green Day.

Speaker 2:
Okay.

Kim:
And Green Day was playing, Dookie came out, maybe this is the timeline. And they were blowing up and they were the biggest thing, the new thing and all the craze. And so it was probably a good tour to be on. Now maybe I'm wrong and maybe they were touring on their own. So maybe it has nothing to do with Green Day. Maybe I'm just old and can't remember stuff. But at some point, he told a promoter, people in Europe want to get you a really good writer. When you're there you're going to get good things when you're a writer.

Kim:
I think Frank said, I want a set of encyclopedias. And they gave it to them. Please tell him that story because that story is dear to me about him to this day. And they gave him encyclopedias when they're on tour in Europe. Like how's he going to carry this shit around? It's so adorable I couldn't even believe it.

Speaker 2:
What a trip. That sounds like Frank though.

Kim:
I guess. No it totally does. Which is why it makes me love them even more.

Speaker 2:
Well that's a great one to end on, I think.

Kim:
I think so too.

Speaker 2:
Thank you so much. This has been a real pleasure and I intend to stay in touch if that's okay.

Kim:
That's totally great. I would love that.

Speaker 2:
Awesome, Kim. Well take care and we will be in touch. And I will give you the play by play on this blog as it develops and show you the result.

Kim:
Yeah. Send me the link. Well you did send me some links. I'm going to go listen to some stuff.

Speaker 2:
Awesome. Cool. And if you ever want to share a demo or just whatever you're working on, I'd always love to be in the know.

Kim:
Well you know what, funny you say that because I am going to send you something that I did a few years go. It's a Blondie cover called Sunday Girl. And I'll just go back to you on Facebook and send it that way.

Speaker 2:
Excellent. Excellent. And now that I can see you have a Facebook page and stuff, so I'll make sure we connect.

Kim:
No, the Facebook page isn't on.

Speaker 2:
Oh I see, I see.

Kim:
I did, but. So I'm going to send you this song and nothing came of it but it was fun to just play, singing my favorite song in the world.

Speaker 2:
Oh, well I can't wait to hear it.

Kim:
And I'll tell you this, it's really high vocals. Really high. Anyway, well it was good talking to you and we will talk at some other point.

Speaker 2:
Sounds great, Kim. Have a wonderful rest of your day.

Kim:
You too. Bye now.

Speaker 2:
Okay, bye.

Monday, October 7, 2019

GRIM DEEDS


GRIM DEEDS

Hewhocannotbenamed: You are the most prolific songwriter I know. What is your creative process? Do you start with a catch phrase or a riff? How long does it generally take for you to complete a song? 

The process will continue to evolve, but my main method revolves around either a song topic or an emotive melody that gets stuck in my head, usually when I'm in the shower or riding my bike. Those are my two favorite songwriting activities. Then I'll pause to grab my phone and sing the melody and whatever lyrics/phrases come to mind. Sometimes that's enough to guide the rest of the song and everything falls into place. Other times I have to come back to it, but in general my process is fast because I just go for it and don't overthink it. I maintain a song titles note pad on my phone and keep my voice memos updated. Then it's just a matter of timing the recording. Lyrics come easily most of the time. I've always loved rhyming and matching syllables to rhythm. Usually the emotion behind the song is rooted in something personal, so that motivates me even more to get it out of my system. I could easily record a song a day if there was time in my schedule. That part is the most challenging aspect, but my goal from the beginning has been to make it part of my life's routine no matter what.

Kody Templeman: Do you think humanity is nearing its end? Is it worth saving at this point?

As you know, many of my themes convey an extremely pessimistic future outlook for humanity. One of the science concepts I teach is carrying capacity, which is basically an organism's maximum sustainable population. Our own exponential population growth is unsustainable. As a father raising a young son it's deeply concerning. I fear Logan's may be the first generation to be forced out of complacency by either natural disasters, war, or perhaps a combination of the two. 


The question of whether humanity is worth saving, or deserves to be saved, it a difficult one. I'm compelled by the idea that we're all connected, and that kindness and love are uniquely restorative to relationships and personal wellness. That's something unto itself that allows me to maintain hope of some kind. But the difficult part is measuring that philosophy against what I know to be true about human nature - namely that people can't help being cruel, selfish, and destructive so much of the time. How can we forgive ourselves?  


Dr. Frank: Is there a difference between the songs you choose to do under the Grim Deeds “persona” and other songs, and if so what’s the difference?


There is a difference, and that difference has more to do with my intentions for the song than it's style or lyrical content. Grim Deeds songs are my ego's offerings for the audience I've managed to build, and are based mainly on personal struggles - though I manage to throw in some commentary and humor now and then. Songs or projects I do apart from Grim Deeds are purely for songwriting practice. I tend to write "songs about nothing" in those situations, because my focus is on the craft of arranging and composing rather than communicating. Sometimes those exercises lead me to better Deeds songs. Other times they just scratch the ongoing itch to create. 



Dr. Frank: Do you ever worry that people whom your songs are about or refer to might discover them?

I want the people I write about to discover their songs, in spite of the foreseeably unpleasant consequences. It's a thrill in a sense, but also a cynical experiment to test my theory that no one actually gives a shit. It's kind of amazing what you can get away with despite the whole "cancel culture" thing. I suppose keeping it on a small enough scale is the key.


Hayley Crusher: What are the three most common negative re-occurring thoughts you personally have to push through every day to physically sit down and make art?


My public and family life are incompatible with my artistic life. Being a teacher makes it risky, and my wife isn't supportive. My family doesn't really get it or care enough to investigate, and almost no one in my daily life knows about it or would care to.


My artistic goals are driven by egocentric needs. Without an audience, there would be no point. Yet building and maintaining an audience requires constant, ongoing work that involves a lot of lame self-promotion. I've always struggled with this aspect and still question how it comes across.


There is peace to be found in anonymity, especially these days. The temptation to unplug and give up the dream for a simpler, less frustrating life remains an appealing option.


Still, I remain compelled to do it and am constantly inspired to write songs. I'm grateful for my abilities and feel the best way to honor them is by being prolific and making use of what time I have left.


Jason V: Shame-attacking is an exercise where you do or say something bizarre or humiliating in public to overcome your fear of embarrassment. The very personal subject matter of your songs, as well as your emasculating stage attire seem to be a form of shame-attacking. Is this the case? If so, has it been therapeutic?


You once described the Grim Deeds persona as an "avatar for human suffering". That's pretty accurate. Everyone will find their own version of Grim Deeds if they dare to take an honest look within themselves. We are all deeply flawed, but there's hope in the connections we make with one another. Comedy and tragedy often go hand-in-hand, and can bring us closer to understanding ourselves and the nature of life. My attire, the self-flagellation with socks, all of it represents a form of communion in which we can share a therapeutic laugh at my expense while acknowledging that the joke's actually on all of us.



Jason V: Since you have been part of the “scene” for quite a while. I’m just going to go ahead and assume that any notion of punk rock heroes and legends is long gone for you. How has it changed your outlook realizing that even the Ben Weasels of the world are just every day schlubs like the rest of us?

There's a unique and lasting humiliation that can result from interactions with heroes gone wrong. What I've learned from my own experiences is to keep my intentions in check at all times. Sincerity comes across just as clearly as self-serving social power moves, and I'd rather enjoy the natural ease of the former than the awkward tension and potential fallout of the latter. Like many lessons in life, these are ones I had to learn the hard way.


Still, I’ve made a habit of reaching out to people who inspire me. Sometimes it’s backfired and resulted in a social miss, but it’s often been an affirming, mutually cool experience. I’ve met several of my close friends that way, including you and other interviewees on the blog. Friendship is one of life’s greatest gifts, so to me it’s worth the risk.



Jason V: If you woke up tomorrow and were unable to take off the mantle of Grim Deeds (corpse paint, wedding dress or sweat pants/socks combo) how would your life change?


Since I’m essentially living a double life with Grim Deeds as the hidden and secret version, I imagine that my public and family life would be spectacularly ruined. My only hope would be some kind of “going viral” situation that might lead to miraculous prosperity. Otherwise I’d be fucked.


Danny Vapid: I believe life is short with a series of choices. Why write songs and not something else?

Songwriting offers a channel and positive outlet for people who might otherwise be defeated by life. It gives me a way to transform my dysfunctions into this thing that people can possibly relate to and enjoy. There's really no better feeling than writing a good song, except when other (especially like-minded) people acknowledge it. Theres also a sense of community among songwriters that is very special. We are able to tap into something that most people can't really access for whatever reason - something that is more sublime than being able to shred on guitar or sing in perfect pitch. There's also a sense of pride that comes from committing to the labor of completing and recording songs. It's a legacy that has the potential to prolong one's relevance, which is compelling in itself. No one wishes to be forgotten.

Andy Social: Tell me about your early days as a musician...

I've been obsessed with music from an early age, but I became a musician mainly due to my realization that I'd never be a pro skateboarder. Before my early 20's I'd never been in a band or played an instrument consistently (trombone in middle school notwithstanding). Although I could write songs in my head, I never realized them until the age of 25. By then both ankles were destroyed from a decade's worth of skate injuries, so I finally accepted my fate and picked up a guitar. Music became my new skateboarding, essentially.


John Jughead Pierson: Your song writing is very prolific and on top of that well constructed.  Two questions, does this come quick and/or do you spend much time editing?  And you stick to a very formulaic pop song structure but your lyrics imply a deeper understanding, do you purposely construct easy musical structures?

Thank you, John. In general the songs come quickly and I usually commit to the first draft. The formulaic pop structures are what I prefer to listen to as well as create. I've always favored straight-forward, traditional, minimalistic pop songwriting. If an idea is compelling enough, then it needn't be overstated. I do purposefully juxtapose lyrical depth with simplistic arrangements, and often catchy melodies with dark song concepts. My aim is to provide listeners with an enjoyable experience that also involves facing painful truths about life. 

Lars Hanneman: Would you prefer to have a "real" band if you could instead of doing the one-man thing?

It's fitting that this question should come from you, Lars. You're a great example of what a one-man project can be with the right approach and attitude. I'm incredibly inspired by what you've accomplished and your natural talent for songwriting which becomes more potent and refined with each release. 

But enough about you! For me it's very difficult to imagine being in a band, mainly due to the constraints of my family life and work schedule. I'm lucky to have experienced being in a band with great musicians who are also close friends. When it works, it's great. I didn't realize until later how rarely it works. I tried a few more times, but the stars never aligned like before so I decided to pursue the one-man path wholeheartedly. I haven't looked back since, though I do love playing live with a band so I'm eager to do that again before too long.


Also, as noted frequently by my pal Dave Parasite, there's only so much enjoyment one can inspire via GarageBand's robot drummer. Real drums, real amps, and real humans playing instruments always sounds infinitely better. I feel like I really fucked myself that way since the majority of my catalog sounds like what it is - shitty home recorded demos. But 14 albums in, I'll probably continue doing it my way for better or worse. It's a great feeling to be your own boss in that regard.


Dave Parasite: I have noticed, both in your interview with me, and other ones I've read on your blog, that you sometimes ask your interviewee if they have an unspoken affinity for heavy metal. Are you simply looking for comrades in arms, or looking to form an army of twin guitar solo warriors that is capable of leveling Tokyo?


Heavy metal fandom is a good litmus test to see how likeminded another person might be. I've found that many pop punkers have an affinity for metal, but some (like you) can't tolerate it really at all. I find it interesting since there are similarities between the genres, and yet a key difference is the tone and "seriousness" of each. Both should be taken seriously but there's also room for humor in each case, according to me.

Prabu Pramayougha: Do you have any specific brand for your on-stage make up? Any L`orreal or Nivea endorsement soon?


I aim for make-up that watches off easily with water. Most of the time I have to rush to put it on in the bathroom of whichever venue I'm playing. It's usually stressful and annoying, plus I have to be careful not to stain the sink or get in people's way. The last time I put on the make-up I played to an empty room! #balladoftheopeningband

Friday, October 4, 2019

MIGUEL CHEN

photo by Jeff Antons

MIGUEL CHEN

Have your accomplishments as an author felt unique compared to your success as a musician? If so, how?
Well, for starters, way more people know me from music world than book world, so the level of success is maybe higher in that realm. There is also an element of the band being a team effort versus the books being more of a solo venture (besides of course my co-author Rod and my publishing team). In writing about wellness, did you hope to reach punk rockers specifically? Have you found there to be a correlation between the punk rock lifestyle and struggles with depression, substance abuse, and other conditions/experiences that are often detrimental to wellness?
The first book was really aimed at punk rockers, the second one not as much. I’m really just trying to present lessons I’ve learned in a language people like myself can process. That certainly includes punk rockers, but I think it can reach further than that. I do see a lot of depression, substance abuse and other issues in punk rock, but I know it exists in other subcultures just as much. This just happens to be the realm I exist in. Do you see a unique opportunity to reach out to punk rockers through your books, offering them perhaps a more positive alternative to coping mechanisms that may cause more harm than good?
That’s my hope! Though I’m not sure most of my target audience can actually read (JOKES!!)! In I Wanna Be Well you reference movements within punk rock aimed at achieving inner peace, such as PMA and posi-hardcore. Do you feel that such movements retain a significant presence in punk? To what extent do you see evidence of that in your audience as a musician?
I’m not sure what posi-hardcore is. As for PMA, lots of punk rockers are familiar with the concept, but only on a surface level. I think everyone is just trying their best, and many don’t realize the power they have to change their own minds and be more positive. Do you feel that your mindset has benefitted your relationships with Kody, Ray, and Darren as bandmates who’ve logged in countless hours together touring and overcoming challenges? Are they receptive to your perspectives on wellness?
My bandmates definitely see me at my best and at my worst. They can definitely see the difference between a balanced, happy Miguel and a pissed off, tired Miguel. I think without the work I’ve put into myself, I probably wouldn’t have lasted as long as I have, either in the band or in life. What is your perspective on the so-called Left Hand Path, and have you discussed this much with Kody? Do you feel that there are ways in which your own perspective could be compatible with, for example, Satanism (atheistic or otherwise)?
Is that the one where you tug off with the opposite hand? I’m alright with it. However you need to go number 3 is your business. Have you found that sharing your personal story has to helped to enable fans and readers to embrace change and accept the inevitability and even beauty of death? Do fans often reach out to share their own stories of loss with you?
Again, I can only hope that my work has some sort of positive impact. The only evidence I have of that is people telling me directly. I do receive a fair amount of messages and talk to a fair amount of fans on the road, it’s really humbling. Has fatherhood offered any unique insights that may apply to your overall approach to life and wellness? What advice might you offer to new fathers who struggle with the overwhelming realities of parenthood?
Being a father and a husband further cements this inkling I’ve had for many years that my life is not only about me. It never has been, and especially now, it never can be. That gives me extra motivation because if I can’t pull myself out of a rut for my own sake, I can certainly do it for others. Do you have plans to continue Stat Dad, and are you inspired to continue developing your songwriting specifically? What do you think are your greatest strengths and challenges as a songwriter, as compared to an author?
Nah, Stat Dad is toast. I will probably keep writing songs though, have always liked doing that. The last TBR 7 inch and full length each have one song I wrote. I've been writing songs since I was 13 years old, and even though I do it way less often now, I think it’s something I will probably always do. Writing songs and books are definitely two very different processes. I think in music it’s easier for me to trim the fat, and use less words. I can get the message across with a less is more mentality. I try to apply that same philosophy to my writing, but sometimes I definitely get carried away. I’ll often write an article or a chapter and end up cutting it down by half, because I realize I’ve already made my point. You’ve remarked that yoga has become like punk rock for you as an outlet that is also integral to your identity. Do you feel any significant differences among peers in one community compared to the other? Have you observed much crossover between these communities?
I’ll say this: there are just as many crazy people in yoga as there are in punk rock, maybe even more so! I think it’s great, we’re all just a bunch of fucking weirdos, trying to figure life out. I’ll say the punk weirdos tend to like better music. Other than that, there’s actually a lot of similarities. Balanced people are balanced whether or not they do yoga or are punk rockers. Conversely, imbalanced people exist in both worlds to equal extent. Many yoga teachers who teach balance are completely out of whack. One of my recent interviewees was Jason V, who is a psychotherapist and practitioner of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Do you find similarities between your approach to wellness and the clinical approach of such therapies as CBT? Have you ever spoken with him about issues related mindset and wellness?
Jason Voorhees? He doesn’t really talk much, he’s more of a man of action. In the wake of recent mass shootings and the ongoing mental health struggles Americans seem to be especially susceptible to, do you find any particular cultural norms in our country harmful to a person’s overall wellness? For example, studies have suggested that individualistic cultures such as ours give rise to more problems resulting from poor coping behaviors, responses to mental illness, etc. Thoughts?
It’s a societal sickness and it feeds on itself. People are struggling so much to make ends meet that we’re all turning against each other, having nervous breakdowns, finding other people to blame and breeding extremists in the process. If we took some of the pressure off, people could focus on mental health, on doing work that fulfills them, on being good to each other. Step one, make sure everyone has their basic needs met. People are afraid, and it’s our work to help them not be, right? Incidentally, have you seen Andrew Yang and his universal basic income proposals? I think this would clear up a lot of the mental health and violence issues we’re facing today. Not telling anyone how to vote, but this dude has some ideas that really line up with my idea of a better tomorrow. As a final note, I’d like to give you credit as being influential to my own journey towards wellness, mindfulness, and inner peace as opposed to the depression and fatalistic mindset that I struggled with for many years. If you have any personal comment please share, otherwise thanks for doing the interview! You’re a good dude, dude. Thanks for having me.